Be It Resolved…

Resolutions… I’ve never been big on these. I think that spending the time working on stuff, trying to recreate ourselves doesn’t usually touch the issue. Not the real issues that should be faced. But I’m rethinking resolutions for this year.
What I’m rethinking isn’t the choice of what to change, but the truth of change for people who follow Jesus. What if the power to change isn’t already within us, like I hear gurus telling me? What if we don’t really have the kind of temptation that it seems we do, like I hear the pulls and draws within myself? What if, and here’s what I’m getting at, what if we are already prison
People who follow Jesus have been given freedom. We weren’t promised solutions. We weren’t promised clarity that would come after we followed the (whatever number) 7 or 3 or 10 steps. We were promised freedom. What if the problem we face with eating or losing control or being self-centered is that we simply “shrug” our spiritual shoulders and continue doing what we did before? What if we haven’t walked out of the prison cell even though the door has been opened?
There is a moment in the last book of the Chronicles of Narnia when a group of dwarves are invited to enter the new, recreated life of the New Narnia and they remain sitting in a shed in the dark because they refuse to believe that there is anything other than that. The door is there and available to them. They can walk through it. They choose to remain in the shed, with their eyes shut, talking to themselves.
I’m going to try something different.
I’m going to recognize my temptations, admit that they are that sincerely, but recognize that they no longer have power over me because they aren’t the ruling power in my life. It’s kind of choosing to learn something instead of telling myself over and over that there’s no way I’m ever going to understand this thing. It is a giving over to the life I was promised and, expecting that when I do, it is going to be there.
You know, this is different than deciding I’m going to be good or I’m going to shape up or I’m going to not be or not do… whatever. It’s even a little different from deciding I’m going to live like this is the first day of the rest of my life. It’s not quite the same as seizing the day or living life to the fullest or making the most of things. It is, or at least it feels like I’m choosing to get to know God better. It seems like that to me because it has to do with accepting him at his word, that what he’s told me is true and I’ll live like that.open_prison_door
It feels different than a resolution. It feels like I’m listening better.

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